An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

By David Pauley

My Rolleiflex 2.8F kept me company on an unexpected trip from NYC back to my hometown in Western Pennsylvania earlier this winter to assist my 95 year old mother after a fall. Despite my acute awareness of her advanced age, some childish part in me and my brothers still expects her to live forever, unlike our Dad who died 32 years ago.

I took the Rollei along as a kind of of security blanket but wasn’t sure whether I would even take it out of my bag. In fact, I used the camera fairly continuously throughout my time there, shooting Portra 400 and one roll of Tri-X. They are a moody batch for sure – the gray landscape matched my mental state, at least at the start of the trip when things with Mom seemed rather uncertain. 

The portrait above shows my mother in her glory at her dinner table last Thanksgiving (despite her age, she insisted on cooking). Although she’s not planning to host major holidays at this point, I’m grateful she’s doing better.

 

All photos were taken in or near Beaver, Pennsylvania except the first and last, taken in the Pittsburgh Airport and on the return flight to NYC.

A county seat of five thousand, Beaver and the towns surrounding it have been home to my family since the 19th century. When I was growing up there industry fueled the economy and defined the landscape. On nighttime walks along the Ohio River you could see the sky ablaze in the east by blast furnaces of Jones and Laughlin Steel and American Bridge Corporation, and to the west by Saint Joe Lead and Crucible Steel.

Jones & Laughlin Steel, Beaver County/Aliquippa Works, c. 1980. Photo credit: wikimedia.

By the mid 80s when I left for college, almost all of those plants had been shuttered, bringing dire consequences to the community. Hopes for an industrial rebirth in recent years have mostly centered on Royal Dutch Shell’s massive ethylene plastics (“cracker”) plant shown in the background of my photos. Its vapors, by-products of the hyrdo-fracking gas used to make vast quantities of plastic pellets destined to be molded into food takeout carriers and other single-use packages, paint the sky. The largest and most heavily subsidized industrial development in Pennsylvania history, it opened in 2022. The plant’s economic impact and long-term environmental toll are however very much in question.

The fifth photo shows Beaver’s First Christian Church, a highly conservative congregation, no longer associated with its mainline denomination, reflected in a puddle. The penultimate photo shows the 1933 Bridgewater-Rochester bridge, which my paternal grandfather was involved in constructing.

Thanks for reading.

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By David Pauley
I'm a Brooklyn-based photographer and psychoanalyst. My journey with photography began in middle school in the late 1970s and revived in 2019 when I bought a used film camera and installed a darkroom in my basement. For 2025 I've decided to use just one camera, a Rolleiflex 2.8F, to document the year.
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Ibraar Hussain on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Superbly written essay
Giving such imagery and a feel for where you grew up
The photographs looks as movie stills - superb stuff
And thank God your mother is recovering - she looks splendid!
Thanks again
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you so much, Ibraar! I hadn't thought of movie stills but so appreciate the compliment. Mom is planning to be here in NY for my daughter's high school graduation in June -- it's a great gift to have her recovering.

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Ibraar Hussain replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Nice one!! I wish her the best !!

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Wim van Heugten on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

It's mnot Royal Dutch Shell anymore. This rekenown Dutch company moved to great Brittain a few years ago and is called Shell plc now. By the end of the day It's all bout greed....
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you Wim -- you are right about She'll PLC of course. It was Royal Dutch when the project began, but like a lot of other corporations, they seem to enjoy playing "shell games" with ownership. I gather the subsidiary that owns the site now is US based...

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Reed George on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you for sharing both your words and images, David. I really appreciate how your images share the mixed emotions of going back to one’s childhood home and dealing with an aging parent. Meaningful stuff, and a mood that I share.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you so much, Reed! I'm glad that the emotion came through and resonated for you. Ours is a situation shared by so many families. Hoping that your aging parent(s) are well.

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Mike on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Beautiful shots, and even better commentary. Treasure your mom.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you for the kind words, Mike! I treasure her more every day.

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Geoff Chaplin on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Lovely photos ans story, thanks. As an aging parent I hope I can maintain the health and independence your mother has - but alas not up to me.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you Geoff so much. My Dad wasn't much older than I am now when he began developing symptoms of dementia, while my mom soldiers on with a sharper mind than the one I possess late into her 90s. Like you, I hope for the path of health and independence, but know that the decision isn't mine. I hope your kid(s) are enjoying their time with you.

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Valerie R Frankfeldt on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Gray indeed, and you did so much with it! What an eye you have. While a death theme is floating in the background, the way you captured such evocative images gives a sense of the life force you bring to what you see.and interact with. thank you so much for sharing this. And as the first commenter said, your writing, as always, further deepens my experience of your perspective on this trip. I was also amazed to recognize the "you" in her face.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you Valerie for your kind words and astute reading of the hovering death theme (which I wasn't aware of, consciously at least!).

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Erik Brammer on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Wonderful images with a hat lifted to Todd Hido with image shot out of the car window in the rain. Well done, David!

Best,
Erik
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Hi Erik, thanks for your kind words and for mentioning Todd Hido, whose work I didn't know -- but am eager to explore. The water-streaked window was in my case a homage to Saul Leiter, who took so many gorgeous Kodakromes from the back of NYC taxis.

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Erik Brammer replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Saul Leiter - yes, indeed, that’s his style, too. Check out Todd Hido. I find his photography fantastic. Have several of his books in transit into my hands. Really looking forward to receiving them. And hats off to your mother!!

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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

I'm already ordering one of his books! Thanks for the recommendation, Erik.

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Art Meripol on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

On of the best posts for reaffirming the quote that a picture is worth a thousand words. Those photos carry so much story and emotion. The photo of your Mom is just beautiful, rich in telling details. Really wonderful work.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you Art so much! I'm thrilled that the photos spoke to you, especially the one of my Mom, which is (understandably, I suppose) my favorite. Thanks again!

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Thomas Lucas on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Just a couple of notes about polyethylene production. First, the chemical process of converting ethylene into plastic is known as polymerization, not cracking. Cracking is when you take large molecules and make smaller molecules and is generally done in oil refineries to produce things like gasoline from heavier crude oil. Second, the vapors from the plant are nothing more than water vapor. Mostly spent steam. Nice photos and an interesting story!
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Hi Thomas, Thanks for your post and for clarification on the chemistry of the Shell plant. I'm relieved to hear that plastics aren't literally wafting into the atmosphere with the copious steam as I had feared, and very much appreciate your learned perspective. The bigger environmental concerns about plastics in the waste stream and consumption of fossil fuels at the plant, as well as the recent partial rupture of a gas line feeding it, unfortunately remain. Similar concerns and many more I'm sure were present in the industries that existed around the county when I was a child. The same Potter Township site, visible from my bedroom window, where the Shell plant now stands was at that time a lead/zinc smelter .... ! I sure inhaled a lot of its fumes for many years. Thanks for reading.

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Gary Smith on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Great shot of your mom at Thanksgiving! Thanks for capturing your travels - it's always fun to go back to Pennsylvania (even through other's photos).
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you Gary! I was experimenting with a studio flash -- harassing everyone at the dinner table as we ate -- and am so glad you liked that one. Cheers!

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Fred Nelson on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Great write up!
I particularly like the empty bench next to the river shot. reminds me of my days in Ohio!
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you Fred! That bench overlooks the Ohio River and the state line is only about 20 miles downstream, so those same waters may have flowed right by you in your Ohio era. Thanks!

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David Dutchison on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Very evocative photos. An innate advantage of the TLR's waist level finder is that it sees things from a child's lower point of view, something that hadn't occurred to me until today.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Wow! That's a superb insight, David. I carried the same camera today at a political protest here in New York and certainly felt the impact of shooting from the waist in in a large crowd. I would've felt much taller/more grown-up with my Leica, but using the Rollei was also an enjoyable challenge. Thanks again!

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John Eaton on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

A gorgeous portrait of your mother, who appears a very kind and wise lady, plus the wonderful moody photos of your family home -- and your text is deeply felt -- thank you!
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 05/04/2025

Thank you so much for your kind words, John. Mom is kind and wise, and I am so glad that came through in the portrait. Cheers, David

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Scott Ferguson on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 06/04/2025

Hi David,
Amazing post! Your photos are so full of mood and atmosphere, while being technically excellent. Does your Rollei have the Zeiss lens? Whatever it is, it looks amazing on Portra 400 on a gloomy day. Absolutely wonderful! I love the Saul Leiter homage on the rainy car window; I only recently discovered Leiter's work when a friend bought me a coffee table book for the holidays and he's certainly one to emulate. I love the shot of your mother and intrigued by the idea of using a flash with an old all manual camera -- I might want a recommendation on a flash unit to try with my Hasselblad 500CM if you have thoughts. I look forward to seeing your shots of the protest. Interesting environment for a camera with a waist level finder; I was 'stealing' some shots over the fence of an off season amusement park in Rye with the Hasselblad last month and there were one or two higher angles peering over the fences that were easy to see with my eye but were so brain twistingly difficult with the waist level that I resorted to the prism finder, and even that was a little tricky. I was planning to take my M3 with my emerging two lens pocketable 'street' kit (a collapsible 50mm f2 Summitar and 28mm Color Skopar f3.5) to the protest. It's a bit of a long story that includes a suspicious number of closed 1 Train subway stops after a speaking engagement at Columbia and I didn't make it. I'm confident it won't be the last big protest event of the current era.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 06/04/2025

Thanks Scott for your super kind words! Yes, my Rollei 2.8 has the Planar lens, but to be honest outside of studio settings I've had equally good results with the Zeiss Tessar on my much older (1949) automat, susceptibility to flare being the only drawback. My relationship to flash is still as we say a work in progress. I bought some studio strobes for $200 on the auction site and have had fun with them, but a speedlight in with a soft box or reflector works well too. I would think in your "day job" you probably encounter all kinds of amazing equipment! As for the protests yes there will definitely be many more! I shot TriX only and on the gray day it could've gone other way. Hopefully 1 per each roll of 12 (I shot 3) will be acceptable. Hope to see your Rye Playland shots one day soon. Cheers! David

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Scott Ferguson replied:

Comment posted: 06/04/2025

Hey David, Interesting about the Tessar vs. the Planar. I have a Zeiss Planar 80mm f2.8 that is currently getting repaired from an accidental drop of about 3 feet onto asphalt on Mott Street in Chinatown -- intrigued to look into the similarities and differences equivalent lenses on different systems. I love my 80mm and can't wait to get it back! So far, I haven't really gotten into any kind of lighting gear of any kind, including flash, since getting the all manual cameras. I have a Contax T2 that I might grab if I'm going to a night time or indoor event where it seems cool to grab some snapshots. Having the option of a small flash unit with the Hasselblad feels like it could be fun for some situations. In terms of anything more elaborate or high tech than that, I am finding shooting all-manual still cameras kind of freeing and I might lean more toward low tech solutions available to people like Caravaggio or Vermeer than using modern cinema gear, which might feel like a busman's holiday. I think the best portrait shot I've taken so far was of a friend of mine sitting next to a window without much other light on the scene. Maybe I'll see you at the barricades soon!

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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 06/04/2025

Hi Scott, I think shooting with natural light is wonderful, even indoors. Faster films or even better tripods and slower shutter speeds can make for wonderful atmosphere. When added judiciously flash can work with those elements, but figuring out where the line is between judicious and overkill separates the pros from folks like me. Good for you also for drawing a line between your career with its bells and whistles and this new art form you're exploring.

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Eugene Wilson on An Unexpected Trip Home with my Rolleiflex 2.8F

Comment posted: 12/04/2025

Wonderful work that really captures the look and feel of early winter in Western PA. I really should take a camera and explore the Beaver area; I've lived in Pittsburgh for 35 years but somehow have never been over there.
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David Pauley replied:

Comment posted: 12/04/2025

Thanks so much, Eugene! I'm not surprised that your travels haven't brought you to Beaver as yet. As kids we similarly didn't make it to Pittsburgh much -- orthodontist appointments in the long-ago demolished Jenkins Arcade and Pirate games being the only exceptions until we were old enough to go to the Civic arena for rock concerts. That said there is plenty of material for photography in Beaver and surrounding towns. Looking forward to seeing whatever you come up with!

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